Melissa+Nelson

On my page it shows that I added a photo so other than that I dont know how to do it..-Melissa

Journal #1

"You go hunting? So do I!" Then Dr. Mrs. B. went back to lecture. The next Wednesday, " What kind of bow do you have?" "Oh, a Browning, it's a little small for me though." That was the first conversation in psychology with Cody. Everyday he would sit by me and talk about things that ranged from our hunting experiences to what we liked on our pizza. Cody is a very intellegent guy, he wants to be a doctor and obviously he likes many of the same things I do. 'Whats not to like,' I thought. As a freshman I was trying to make friends with as many people as I could, including Cody. Him being a senior scared me but I thought, 'Why not?' The first time I saw him outside of class was when I decided I was going to go to the football house for a party. I'm not much on partying but I decided to check out what all my friends were talking about. I get there and he greets me at the door with a smile. 'Great,' I thought, 'I know someone here.' He introduces me to some of his friends and I see my girl friends from my hall. I introduce them to Cody and decide to go downstairs to dance a little but with my friends. Next think I know Cody's hands are low on my hips and his body is touching the back of mine. This really scared me that some random person was touching me where I didn't want them to. I turned around and asked what he was doing and he said, "Oh, I just wanted to dance." I just simply replied, "maybe later, I'm dancing with my friends right now, sorry." The rest of the night he stood behind my friend Rose and watched me dance by myself. I tried going upstairs but he followed wherever I went. He wouldn't leave me alone and I tried avoiding him. It made me really scared and nervous because he seemed so nice in class. 'Why is he doing this?' So I left the party, I didn't know what led me so astray when I first met him. This is when my paradigm shift happened. I woke up the next morning to a four page letter from him stating how he didn't want our close relationship to end. 'What close relationship?' This experience has taught me so much about myself and how easily I trust people. It's really scary thinking I could trust the wrong people and get really hurt. I now try to keep my guard up as much as possible to avoid this situation again.